First BLOG
What is a blog? Such a funny word. I have never written a blog post before. So forgive me if I do it wrong. I have never thought of myself as much of a writer, and yet here I am. I have decided to write blog posts based on my business and daily life, in the hope that I help someone or give them meaningful advice on the tough situations I encounter daily.
Lately my mind has been scrambled. I can’t decide where I want my crystal business to go. I feel as if i’m at a standstill and nothing will change until I make the decision. The decision, that is, deciding whether to stay in place or to make a huge leap of faith. Doing anything new can be scary, but I do new things all the time, don’t I? I try new ideas, I buy new crystals, I make presumptions on the crystals I think my buyers will want, but most importantly, I have moved my business around. You see, I started out as a reseller, selling the old clothes out of my closet. From there, I moved onto jewelry, purses, shoes, vintage glass and pottery. Finally I found and landed on crystals. I love crystals, the beautiful nature of the world and its magnificent crystasl have also fascinated me. It was only a matter of time before I started my business.
I have been selling crystals for nearly 4 years, and a reseller for nearly 8. In all this time I have constantly doubted myself, and feel like I never do anything right. But, but I must be doing somthing right. I have a business, I make enough to feed my family, pay the bills and buy more crystals. I struggle, but I always manage. Sure i’ve taken out loans here and there but i’ve always paid them back on time. I dom’t know why I doubt myself, or feel like i’m not doing good enough. Maybe my ambitions are too grand. It feels like nothing is ever good enough. I just want it to be good enough. I want to be good enough.
That’s a big part of this as well, I have placed too much of myself into my business. I am my business. Which is not the way your supossed to run things. I own a business, I am not the business. But when the business struggles I feel like it’s my fault, like I havnt done enough, like i’m not good enough. It’s quite taxing on one’s mental health. So, where do I go from here. That’s the question, unfortunately I do not have an answer yet, but hopefully soon.
Warm regards- TheReHomer
